As I turned 9497 days today...,

As I turned 9497 days today, I look back at life and can summarize it as follows: I got my share of ups and downs, memorable moments and living nightmares, things I got from life and things I lost to life, good people and the rest of the world, crushes and heartbreaks, a broken back but a strong will, good friends and barely any foes, occasional unrest in the mind but a strong control over emotions, an educational and career track that has been a roller coaster ride: literally, people that made me feel good about myself and people that drove me mad, awesome food and ice creams, some hobbies that I'm really passionate about but lack of finances to fully pursue them, dreams and desires that are yet to be fulfilled, not being noticed by the girls I want to be noticed by and the opposite, misunderstanding and being misunderstood , being occasionally selfish but always trying on being a good listener and a good friend and finally having so many friend that took the time out to wish me a Happy Birthday. Not bad eh?

Thank you all so much for the wishes and to all those who have wished me and to those who have not, I wish you all a very Happy friendship day and a wonderful life!! Cheers! :)

The rains are here....

I just wanna have fun...

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April of 2010...

... has taken from me and given me many important things. Somehow, they don't seem to compensate for each other. Just because there is day after every night, it doesn't mean I have to like the darkness. I just have to sleep through it I guess. Not sure though...

Feels like I'm having to start everything all over again.. it's good because I know what mistakes I gotto avoid and things can only get better from here ... kind of sad that all the old stuff is gone...

Must learn guitar this year at any cost....

Take off

That's what's gonna happen to my career now... I just know it. It's been just 20 days into the new job but I can already feel the importance of it. Being associated with two 'biggies' from the IT world is just awesome. Being able to constantly interact with people from all over the world is great. Being in a pretty important role feels great. Not being restricted by a hell lot of rules feels great. Of course there are issues and stress everywhere you go but even then, doesn't really feel bad when I have to wake up at 2:30 in the night/morning to go to work, because I.. FEEL.. GOOD !

Last night, while I was lying on my bed waiting for my brain to relax and doze off into relatively suspended sensory and motor activity with partial unconsciousness, I listening to songs on my mobile while looking at the slideshow of the photos I had with me.

I realized that I had a pretty good life and very thankful for having met some really cool people along the way. I still have some of them with me today. Some people from my past are not present in my present because of a reason. I'll let it be.

The rest of my friends are still there.. just out of reach.. I wish I can make everything go back to the way it was., with them. I hope I will continue meeting more good people as long as I live. I realize there can be too much of chocolate but never 'too many friends'.

I didn't realize I liked travelling so much until I finally did go on a long due trip. It was good to be in a train travelling to Bangalore (Bengalooru) to my uncle's place... something I used to do a lot as a kid. I love train journeys. There's something I like travelling sitting face to face with strangers., eating food packed from home., occasionally sharing it with the strangers who might not seem so 'strange' after a while., sitting back by the wind watching the scenery change.., feeling slightly safer than in a bus or a plane.

Wish I had more time to travel more with my family or friends. Everybody is just too busy nowadays.. sad state of life.,

Attachment....

.... anybody's strength or weakness. As a kid when I read about sadhu's or ascetics talking about renouncing everything they had, I laughed. Why would anyone give up what they like for some 'spiritual or intellectual gain' they 'might' achieve. I now realize it is much more simple than that.

You get attached to people/things and your problems start because you're always worried about how to keep them, how to guard them or what would happen if you lose them. There.... is your weakness.

You get attached to people/things and you now have a reason to fight for, live and treasure. There's nothing more satisfying than having people you can call your own and things that you own.

I was very attached to my previous work place and the people there... a few more so than others. Even though I was dying to get out of the routine work, the last few days were very emotional. Should you let emotions come in the way of practical decisions... ? This time I didn't... it is all for the good I said to myself.

Until I find myself a new job or new friends or both... I feel a bit alone... even with three other 'me's !!

The Yellow Chilli

Have I already eaten the tastiest food I could have eaten or is it that restaurants nowadays don't make that good food ? Every time I go out for lunch or dinner, I come out with my tummy full and my pockets lighter, but not much of satisfaction. One such place i went to recently was The Yellow Chilli. Don't get me wrong, i'm not talking bad about the food. It's alright. I had the buffet so couldn't really taste everything on the menu, but sure got a taste of what the food is like. Some dishes were very very good, some very forgettable. The ambience was certainly something I will remember about the place. Well, if I keep complaining about every place I eat, I probably will end up with no place to go. Forgetting the very very dry biryani I had there, the place is surely something you can try out the next time you go out with friends !

Maaaan... 24 hours is just not enough !!

I know.. Who hasn't given this excuse for not being regular on the blog ? I won't lie. There had been a lot of things happening in my life during the past few months, but not so many that I would hae to ignore my beloved blog. I just got lazy. Wanted to make full use of the free time I got, to just sit back and relax.

It has not even been two years into my work and I'm already exhausted !! Not because I work that much, but this work's been taking away time from my other interests and other parts of my life. That is also one of the reasons i'm single... it's true !!

I did have my share of fun, but again, it wasn't relaxing. It had to planned, organized and executed, like an official meeting. But, once we got started, I forgot all my worries and pains. Feels good to be with friends, no matter what you do together.

Give me rain... give me pain... I'll still live life... love life....

I'm not one of those people who lie that they love rains. I hate them. They make life miserable for many people trying to go on about their daily lives. They cause destruction wherever they go. But again, they sustain life on our planet and the mood that rains set, that just cannot be matched by anything else. I was at home all today and most probably will be home all day tomorrow too as someone up in the skies above forgot to turn off the taps! It's raining just too bad to go out and do anything. Of course, I took the advantage of the atmosphere to get a very rainy-moody-lost-in-my-world kind of shot. Who doesn't love rains ?

Cold Coffee

Innovativeness seems to be a sure way to success.., professional or personal. I've been to quite a few coffee cafes a lot many times and it was only the last time i thought.. who would have thought coffee could be had cold and who would have thought that could turn into a craze (a tasty one) and lots of business could have been done off of it. Cheers to the mind who thought of it all.

Nothing is fun

It was nice to roam the streets of Hyderabad past midnight and do just nothing. Life is not fun when you always have to do something. But again, we didnt want the police to come and tell us to go home or drown my new camera in the rain. So we went back home and guess what we did... nothing.

In Nill I trust...

With the kind of people around me, it's kind of hard to trust anybody.. even your own self ! I've had countless posts on trust on my blog and that's just very very important to me. I am kind of ruthless to people who break trust and they just have to get the punishment they deserve. Don't they ?

Boys Night out

Today was a slightly better day out than all those routine dinners at all those different places but with the same food. My friends who've been abroad for an year now are in town and all of us decided to do something fun tonight and decided to go bowling. Of course, many others in Hyderabad had the same idea and the bowling alley wasn't free for quite a long . But again, small hindrances couldn't come in the way of our boys night out. We played pool instead and it was good fun. Of course, I was having fun in my own way.

Time constraints take out all the 'fun' out of the fun time and everytime there's one dude who has to go home early. Damn ! I don't know when will all of us grow up !?

Tests...,

Tests are everywhere.., no.., you didn't get rid of them when u finished ur schooling or your college. You're constantly tested in life, by teachers in schools n colleges, by your newspaper when you're solving puzzles, your patience tested by other motorists on the road and also every single day, by life itself.

Today I had an exam too, a serious one, one whose results would have pretty bad consequences on somebody's life. I had an evaluation exam at work. Though I wasn't a part of the group of test takers, I was asked to give it anyways. I did n I did it good. To be honest, it was pretty scary taking a test that could result in someone going home without a job, someone's life changing JUST LIKE THAT. But, I'm glad I took the test, I realised that I was important to my organization and I wasn't invinsible but my job couldn't be terminated just like that. It also made me feel guilty that I'm not standing up to the expectations of my seniors. I have to work on it and do something about it and this time, unlike other times, don't plan to just say it but do something about it.

After the test, I caught up with some old friends. To be honest, as always, initially I was happy but not 'excited' 'cause I'm not really the partying and outing types and they were, but, at the end of the day I'm happy that we did meet. It was good fun. I got to go to places that I wouldn't go with my other friends, had DUNCH (which is supposed to be an extremely late lunch, just short of dinner) with them, shared a few good , a pretty fun evening I can conclude.

My work's killing my social life pretty bad. I wan't to reclaim it back. It's important for everyone who's doing anything to take care that one part of your life shouldn't overshadow everything else. Take out some time for yourself and do things that you like to do or always wanted to do. Then, you can start living life and loving life like I do.

My Tonic..,

It was very hard waking up.,
I needed a GLASS full of strong coffee., not just a cup.,
I helped out a friend with his project.,
the idea turned out to be pretty good., if not perfect.,
Shaved neatly., took my bath with the good old cinthol soap.,
to make a good impression at my presentation is my only hope.,
I'm working towards getting a better pay.,
i'm not greedy.., no way.,
better pay always means better appreciation.,
of course., with that comes a lot of pressure n expectation.,
i'm not a workaholic.,
i just like to be known for the good things i do., that's my tonic :)

Try n try.., till u like it.

My career planning was the worst anybody could have ever planned. I graduated in one field, aimed 4 higher studies in another field n ended up working in another field. I always dreamed of pay packages so high that there were some nights I spent thinking about what I would do with all the money ! I always dreamed of working in a creative industry where I would sit in my office, chewing the pencil, my creative juices flowing, me coming up with a gr8 idea, that idea bringing my company loads of money n me getting everybody's applause n a small part of that money.

Things didn't turn out the way I planned/dreamed. They never do. I'm working in a totally technical field. I never thought I'd wear formals, now I do. I never thought I'd work for such a low pay package,now I do. I never thought that I'll be teaching anybody, now I do, well... partly.

But you know what. Inspite of all that, I'm loving my job. I really do. Think about it, you'll never really know if you like something unless you've tried it. I tried it, thank god, n I like it. Money'll come.., sooner or later., but how many ppl look forward to working everyday? I know I do ! :)

I know it's not right to just go 4 everything u come across , but it won't hurt to give it a try, n who knows...., that one trial can change ur entire life !!! Happy experimenting ppl !!

Choices n confusion ..,

I can imagine just how peaceful the lives of ancient men and women were in the pre-historic times. Their secret was simple. They had less choices to choose from in everyday life. Though they didnt have all the luxuries and tools that we have today, which by the way are also among the reasons for the confusion that choices create, I'm sure their life was way smoother than ours.

Considering the confusion that choices create, I've been a very confused person lately and I'm not enjoying it. It took me three freaking hours to choose ONE pair of clothes and mind you, I'm not really a fashion conscious person. It's taking me and my dad almost a week to choose a good cell phone. (We still haven't made a final choice.) It takes me 15-20 mins to pick a movie when I go to the movie rental parlor. It takes forever to choose a gift for somebody. It's a brain racking and (in a way) life threatening choice to decide on what you want your career to be.

It's kind of funny that life becomes both organized and confusing because of the many choices we have. Too many choices give enough options to pick something from so that we can almost have exactly what we want but again considering too many options certainly doesn't go easy on the brain.

Why I chose to write (I actually made a choice within a minute on this one !!! yaay ! ) about this topic was the confusion I was in about the topics I wanted to write on. I wanted to but I decided not to write about possible solutions to deal with confusion because everybody has their own way of dealing with it or atleast they'll learn with experience.

I want to take my blog to a new level, may be a photoblog, or a blog on social issues, or a cookbook blog or continue just the way it is ? Hmm...... I'm confused..., again.

We DO need some PROPER EDUCATION...,

I've been so inactive on my blog that I missed out on it's second birthday on the 7th of July. Well.., it's never too late.., Belated Birthday wishes to my Beautiful Beloved Blog !

Why am I not so regular ? Blogger's block ? Naah.., it's not that I dont have anything to write., it's like I wanna take it slow ., compose myself., take notice of wat's happening in and around my life., do some soul searching., improve myself and other stuff that many gr8 celebrities do when they're not to be seen around for a few days and one day then come back with a bang. I'm not even remotely hinting that I see myself as a celebrity but I sure like the coming-back-with-a-bang thing.

I so badly wanted to write about global warming and write a huge list of what-to-do's and what-not-to-do's. The message is clear. Do everything you can to save earth. We got no other place to go to. We don't have much time on our hands. Halfway through the post I realised that we've been reading and hearing this stuff since school days and that's what we do. We hear., we don't really listen. So to really make you LISTEN (and see)., I got this video for you. Hope it inspires you to not just make decisions but to act on them. You don't have to jump off building like these kids., but you can definitely take them as an inspiration to take a step forward for the cause.



You should also check this video out. Though not completely the same theme., but this goes hand in hand too.

What I've done: Linkin Park