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Sunday, September 25, 2005

My Girlfriend !!!???




For some crazy reason ppl keep thinking that I have more than one girlfriend ! Where in the blue hell did they get that !!!??? One friend asked me " u're 21 years old, happy n goodlooking., y are you stil single ? Y don't you find one good girl for you?"
I thought about it for a while., may be my friends right.., may be its really time. All my life I’ve been believing that 20+ years of age is the perfect age to get involved with someone.., seriously., it is.
But again., I’ve also believed in someother principles . The main idea for me believing that this age is perfect for having a girlfriend is that you usually are done with your studies and soon., you’ll be standing on your own feet., an independent grownup., someone who’s old enough to be responsible for the choices you make and the actions you take. When you’re earning your own livelihood., you can answer to anyone who thinks they can tell you that what you are doing is wrong or right. Also ., your responsibility of following the rules laid down by the parents when you’re dependant on them kind of ease up.
As far as I am concerned., this is the main reason Y I have been single and probably don’t regret it too much.
The reason my heart probably agrees with my mind that I’m happy single is that may b I haven’t yet found the perfect girl yet. I’ve got some really great girls as friends .,some are my serious crushes.., so nice n cool that there just mite be ppl who’d kill for them ! Amazing people with very interesting mentalities.., I have a LOT of fun with them ., I’m always here to help them out WHENEVER they need it. The sad part being.., however perfect and fun our friendship looked / was .., I’ve JUST NOT been able to really seriously connect ( atleast romantically) with anyone of them however fun our friendship has been. It has always been about fun., fights n other stuff.
Life is fun., but we do need some seriousness to balance it out. Not that I got problem with fun., but I personally think u can know somebody well they're serious., serious in the sense., not foolin around jokin n stuff. Well.., that ., I dont have in my life. Sounds strange that someone is missing out on moments 'without fun' ! but its true.
Well.., I’m not that ‘into’ the boyfriend/ girlfriend stuff ., nor do I have any experience in this..,but., I sincerely believe that unless some serious understanding n bonding are present., the relation cannot be a success !
Another thing that has been bothering me is.., wat if I've found the perfect girl., but according to my above stated 'principles' ., I've still got to wait for sometime., but again scared ., might miss out on her., wat if things don't work out well in the future., wat if some other lucky guy gets her b4 me !? Things like these scare me.., but guess there's nothing I can do about it ! Life's like that.., this shud keep me satisfied 4 some time.., but definetely not happy..,

Saturday, September 24, 2005

Fun on an almost hopeless day

Alrite ! After reading my previous post you must b feeling real sad for me coz I had to spend the whole day alone at home. Well.., ehem.., I think I spoke, rather .,blogged too early ! today wasn’t that bad day after all ! I woke up determined that I’m not goin to let this holiday go to waste. I had my hopes on two friends., rohit n kartik. I know they’ve watched the movie already., but I also knew that we make pretty good company n sure to have fun when we’re together. I decided to take them to the movie even by the use of force if I had to! Good that I didn’t have to resort to that ! I just called up Rohit n he said yes ! Went n talked to karthik., he said yes too ! Karthik decided to come late., we both left 4 the theatre 45 mins before the show ., on a holiday ! Obviously we didn’t get our tickets. We were just goin to return home when some guys we knew offered us two spare tickets they had. We had gone to the multiplex to watch one movie and ended up watching another movie ‘ Chocolate’ . Only the name.., nothing sweet about it. A complete action movie very well shot and nicely made. A review about ‘CHOCOLATE’ will b coming soon on my blog but for now., I’ll just say., it’s a good movie and lucky we did decide to watch it rather than return home.
After the movie , we called karthik n had some nice hot chat at a new place we decided to try out n after that ., they’ve gone to meet up with other friends n I’m here., blogging about my not so boring days.
Just goes to prove that no day can b real bad. I’ve also learnt a lesson 2day. Even when the sky is full after dark clouds.., u shud always remember that it’s bright n sunny on the other side .., the clouds ARE going to make way soon.

Friday, September 23, 2005


Wow ! Wat a boring day ! Was stuck in the class the whole day. Couldn't join my friends for sports coz of my back injury. Couldn't even sit with them n watch their game. I was so darn bored that untill the end of the day at college ,I didn't notice my friends didn't come to college 2day., didn't notice that I didn't have anything for lunch., didnt notice that I was running a slight temperature. The bus journey home was better coz my friends had come in my bus to give me some company. I'm real glad that they did. After coming home., got refreshed a bit., took a risk n went out to out regular hangout after close to 2 months now. This again I'm glad I did., coz it was nice fun there too. The fun part of the day was good. Wat really dissapointed me was that I had so many 'friends' around me but NONE to give me company when I really want to go out and have fun. It'd b selfish for me to force someone to go out with me for my own pleasure but as a friendaholic like me., its really sad that I have to spend my day alone @ home just like I did the whole month I was out of action ! I miss my old friend., my best buddy Arjun like hell 2day. Really wish he was here 2day.., I'm sure he wud have given up just about any work for me. Well.., THAT is wat true friends are for !

Thursday, September 22, 2005

My fourth tiring day at college. Well., frankly it wasn't thaaat fun 2day .., as much as it was the first three days., but ..,I guess i prefer getting bored with my friends around me to gettin bored all alone in my bedroom.
Its the fourth day at college and I still keep getting comments n statements like ' Oh ! u've become so thin!' and ' U've become so fair!' .., its very nice to hear those.., but I'd love to hear more of.., ' Hi ! welcome back.., look wat a big wonderful chocolate I got for you' or ' Hi ! gr8 to see you back., lets go., I'll buy you lunch today'.
Also one 'strangly flattering' thing I noticed was that people I just used to wish with just a hi or a bye came up to me n told me they were wondering where I was all these days ! Its strange coz .,personally I just take notice of only ppl I'm friends with ., I know now it makes me feel a bit guilty.., all those ppl really take notice of me ! ..,and the flattering thing is ., I have ppl I don't talk to ., concerned just enuf to notice that I'm missing. Well., I really don't Njoy much attention., good or bad., but I am really touched by all this.
After three years of getting bugged BY the college., its kinda weird .,saying that finally ., now., when its time to get used to the hard fact that the same time next year., I'm not gonna be in this college with all these wonderful friends of mine., I'm gonna miss my college !
As we all know., I'm not the kinda guy thats gonna sit n cry about this till the time really comes. I'm not goin 2 let some surgery stop me completely from having fun. I wanted to Live life and Njoy life in the coll this year ., and HELL YEAH I'm gonna do it !
CHEERS !

Wednesday, September 21, 2005

YIPPEEE


YIPPEEE !!!
Back to college after more than a month ! Feels so darn good ! After a month of being indoors.., a month of being on bed., a month of doing nothing but sleeping and staring at the ceiling., a month of just talking to friends on the phone n not being able to meet them face to face.., an hour long grueling bumpy back breaking bus ride with a suicidal maniac driver to reach college was worth everything !
I didn’t exactly get a welcome I was expecting., well.., I was expecting a wild welcome back party :P ! That’s alrite.., ppl know that I’m a calm placid guy. I was greeted by warm welcoming smiles everywhere n I was very touched. All around there were smiling faces n greeting hands n lots of questions about wat hppnd to me n how I was now. It was a lil tuff answerin everyone but I managed some of them with just a smile.., my charming smile! :D
Day 3 2day.., I think i'm starting to strain myself a lil now., its gettin harder to sit for long., but I know I got no other option n just have to be strong and pull thru this sem .
One interesting thing I gotto do during my one month house arrest. I gotto to experiment just a lil with my looks :P . I'm don't have that good style/fashion sense., never dared to experiment with my clothes or hair or anythin b4. I had got my hands on a digicam that belongs to a friend and also I had a week on hand b4 I'd go into the outside world ., so had this idea of getting a photoshoot done.., rite at home., shot by yours truly ! Here are some of those pics that I liked..,

Wednesday, September 14, 2005

It has been close to

It has been close to a month now since I’ve been to college. Wow ! I spent 30 days lying on the bed n doing nothing and still haven’t gone bonkers ! I must b really really patient n strong minded! LOL !
  It was HELL the first two weeks ., but now.,when its time to go back to coll., I don’t quite feel like doin that. I got used to Njoyin my time alone,. Listening to music for hours., reading the newspaper ,which I never did b4 this( I just go thru the pics :P).
  I’m not sure I wanna go back to the noisy crowded atmosphere now. Its so peaceful at home. So peaceful that I almost got into practicing meditation ! LOL! Lets save that for the future when I really got nothing to do.
Well academically I have taken a bad beating as far as my college or competitive exams are concerned. Not that I study like 15-20 hours a day ..,  but it’s a lil hard to get back on the track after a months break. I miss my life a lot., my friends., my outings.,my regular TV shows.,my bike. Hmm., guess I was havin lots of fun n life decided to gimme a break. That’s ok.., I’m the kind of guy who believes in SHUTTIN UP and LISTENING TO LIFE., coz my life knows wats best for me.

Saturday, September 10, 2005


GANAPATHI BAPPA MORYA ! ! ! Y SO MUCH 'SHOR'YA !!!???


I am still not a 100 % ., but I just had to shout out my mind about this issue ., and wat better way than my blog.
Religion.., to me its a faith ., somethin that brings together a few ppl who believe in that faith. When you believe somethin so seriously.., u have to show ur loyalty towards it.., n that., is devotion. Well.., all that is very good.., not somethin I strongly follow, but still., its good.., but wat really bothers me is .., hmm., how do u put it., over expression or show of devotion.
"Show of devotion" under normal standards itself is too much for me.., I mean like goin to temples regularly without fail., poojas n stuff.., I just wonder.., when U pray to god.., do you need to go somewhere to do it ? Do you need a physical image to do it ? GOD is omnipresent everyone says., so y can't u just close ur eyes where u are n pray !
Anyways.., thats not the focus of my article., lets come to the "show of devotion" in the extreme form., which is visibly apparent all around us in this ganesh chathurthi season and very very irritatingly 'audibly' existent. Every small lane n every small corner of every street has a neatly set up stage with beautiful majestic Ganesh Idols with poojas being performed very religiously in the mornings and evenings. Now.., the time in between.., those loudspeakers blaring the devotional tunes ., loud enuf so that they can beat the adjacent ganesh celebrations .., repeating them time after time that by now everybody in those areas are well versed with all the lyrics ! I mean.., WAT THE !!! Is that really necessary !?
That is more of a sound pollution than show of devotion !
Anyways., I just had to take out my frustruation.,and I did.., anyways.., while I go rest.., all u ppl have fun in the ganesh utsav n all !
Happy Vinayaka Chathurthi !!!


Tuesday, September 06, 2005

So Finally Im back ...,

So.., Finally I’m back home..,I’m BACK !!!
My surgery was a success and nothing went wrong. Still.., I was stuck at the hospital for 10 whole days !!! I learnt a lot in those 10 days. First thing I learnt was that my patience is way way beyond what I thought I had. I mean .,for a guy like me who’s always doin something.., spending 10 whole days in the same room ,lying down on the same bed for close to 22 hours a day didn’t drive me crazy ! Now that is surprising ! I had a small crappy TV in my luxury room but that didn’t help coz I could watch it while lying down and not much made sense when everything on TV seems to be tilted 90 degrees to one side.
I was pretty scared before the operation and then my friend ‘Zephyr’ called me n told me her experience with the surgery and hospital to make me comfortable with everything and it worked till before the surgery. What happened during the surgery.. I donno…, coz I was knocked out cold . Zephyr told me that I’d be out the whole day coz of the anesthetic but guess wat !? I was up on my way out of the O.T ! First day in the ICU was hell so was the first sleepless night there. But thank god I had those wonderful nurses with me. Yeah., my friends think there are cute nurses n I MUST BE flirting with them., but only I know how much respect I have for those nurses for all their patience n the hard work they put in serving the patients. When I say they’re like angels in real life.., I mean it. I didn’t let them sleep the whole night coz I cudn’t sleep and still they always talked to me with a smile on their lips. Wow ! Now that is Patience !
Now that I’m home.., things are not still THAT good. I can’t sit for more than 10 mins at a time and this single entry needed 4 sessions for me to finish ! I still have to take loads of rest for at least 10-12 days at the minimum. Now that almost brings tears to my eyes., but the optimist that I am., I know that at the end of every ordeal., there is something very good that I deserve. So., hoping 4 the very best., Now I go to rest.
Thanks to everybody for all the wonderful wishes.They will NEVER b 4gotten. See ya !